MOTHER'S DAY!!

You know I was reading all the blogs that have Mother's Day stories and it has made me so sad and weepy. I truly envy the Mother's who have wonderful children that think of them and what they do for them. I would love so much for my children to love me that much. My son the attorney hasn't spoke to me in several years. I have grandchildren I have never seen. I am sure they don't even know I exist. I have a daughter and grown granddaughters that I see every now and again. Not often at all. I have a daughter and three grandchildren who live with me. My daughter blames every bad thing that's happened in her life on me and I'm sure she is right. She's told me many times she hates being at home. Yesterday was no exception. I feel sad to know I have three children that I mean not much too. It has to be my fault. Children do not just grow up having little feelings for their Mother. We are raised to believe that our Mother's are the beginning and end to it all and we should have much respect for them. I did too much wrong now I have only myself to blame. I'm not feeling sorry for myself(maybe a little)I just wish I'd done things differently.

I miss my own Mom very much and wish now I had let her know how much she was appreciated, although I don't think I realized how much I needed her. She had a stroke when I was a mere 22 years old and it was pretty much the end of my life as I had known it. I miss her so much. Would have been nice to have a brother or sister but I am an only child. I regret a lot of things I did and did not do.